糖果2006

     第一遍看，很唯美。有关爱，沉溺，放纵，青春，责任。。。人生如初见，candy和的初遇，透明而梦幻，唯美的令人窒息。年轻而健康的性爱，充满着爆发的激情，然而天堂和地域亦不过是一瞬间而已。混乱，暴力，疯狂，咒骂。他们都没有错，错的是年轻的心根本承受不住生活和责任的磨练。
   人生若只如初见，何是秋风悲画扇。画面最后，当终于拒绝candy,动容亦不过如此。最真挚的爱，就是舍得放手，然后让你幸福。既然我给不了，那就放你自由

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, my Danny boy.
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome, and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.Danny, the daredevil. Candy went missing. The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
"I wanna try your way this time."
You came into my life really fast, and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender.
Then there was a gap in things, and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business. This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked.
Sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
I broke your head on the back of the bed.... the baby died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little gal....
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.

我在1月10号的时候写了一篇关于Heath Ledger的文章. 没想到就在短短半个月的时间里, 他就这样消失了. 还是母亲打电话通知的. 当时的我张大了嘴, 说不出半个字. 前几天一个美国男孩子在他自己的家里举办了一个Heath 追悼会派对. 很可惜我没能参加. 现在周围大大小小的报刊杂志全都充斥着Heath死亡的消息, 和他生前种种的不羁. 认识Heath 不是因为爱国者, 不是因为断背山, 是因为糖果.


Candy. 爱情毒针.


一部澳大利亚的片子, 到处是炎热的天气, 土气的口音.


Candy是一个艺术学院的学生. Dan是一个无业青年. 快速相识, 疯狂坠入爱情. 期间种种不易. 整个过程,是从天堂到人间到地狱.


最后的时候, Dan 在唐人街的某家餐馆里洗盘子, Candy 找到他.

他说不可能了. 一切都已经物是人非.

Dan和Candy的爱情. 从美妙幸福变成最后的悲伤惨烈, 让人哀叹.

但是这样的爱情, 也变成我一生的追求.

这个过程

会不会是我今后将要面对的?

成熟之后, 爱得人多了,

与之相交会,

从此生命里便留下了他们的影子

渐渐成为我的一部分,

挥之不去.

这个自己原来是有很多人来构成的.

我曾经说话像他. 现在开始写字像你.

最终变为失格.

最终抛开了我自己.


我的时间有限, 能与你共度.

觉得有幸

请求你在些快速转变的季节里

与我一同晒太阳, 一同持家, 一同喝啤酒, 一同入睡.

不管最后结局是什么

我都将倾尽自己的心.

总是有那么一段发烧的时候
人生的非常时候。
佐之以海洛英的话
这个发烧可能是一种极致
这个电影的张力的明显的
而且这种张力，很迷幻，没有一定的方向，---这是作为毒品的candy？
看这个电影的时候，很容易恍惚。尤其是导演还用天堂、地狱、人间来分段，更加迷惑。
镜头干净，直接
最后的时候，又是那样光彩照人的、性感青春的candy到中国餐馆来找洗盘子的他，他哭了。
回不去了。他说
我突然想起，陈升在刘若英访谈中，说的话，表达的情绪。
candy，用所有的有颜色的化妆品，在他们的爱巢陋室的所有空的能够写字的地方，写下了他们的爱情日记，很有冲击力。一如她的离开，一如她父亲的眼神。
一如她母亲说的，你在我这个美丽的女儿身上做了什么？
所以他说，回不去了？

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year.
All the wax was melting in the trees.
He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her...
oh Danny boy....
Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair.
Everything was gold.
One night the bed caught fire.
He was handsome and a very good criminal.
We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars.
It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.
Danny the daredevil.
Candy went missing.
The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks.
I want to try it your way this time.
You came into my life really fast and I liked it.
We squelched in the mud of our joy.
I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted.
This is the business.
This, is what we're after.
With you inside me comes the hatch of death.
And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again.
The monster in the pool.
We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans.
Everywhere I looked.
And sometimes I hate you.
Friday -- I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness.
Angel of the storm.
Remember me in my opaqueness.
You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.
Fly away sun.
Ha ha ha you are so funny Dan.
A vase of flowers by the bed.
My bare blue knees at dawn.
These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going too.
 I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning.
I gave him a name.
His name was thomas.
Poor little god.
His heart pounds like a voodoo drum."


那些回忆 变成美妙的词语
变成五彩的文字出现在那个乱七八糟的家
Dan奋力的擦 却始终抹不去他们的痕迹

到那时我才发现candy确实是艺术家

曾今有一对男女名叫dan和candy
那年一切都很火热
所有的蜡烛都在树上融化
他在阳台蠕动，到处攀爬，为她做任何事
我的dan男孩
成千上万的鸟儿 最小的鸟儿装点着她的秀发
一切都是金色的
一天晚上 欲火点燃了绣床
他风度翩翩 坏得恰到好处
我们住在阳光和巧克力的宫殿里
午后纵情狂欢
dan 铤而走险的战士
candy为你祈祷
那天的余晖像鲨鱼般在巡游
“这次，我要试试你的办法”
你如此迅速的进入我的生命 并且我喜欢
我们在欢愉的泥泞中碾得粉碎
我双腿潮湿 屈服于你
万物之中有条鸿沟
整个大地都倾斜了
这就是事业 这就是我们追随的
你在我体内 伴着夜晚的降临
难再入睡 水池中的怪物
黑暗本质的一部分 飞翔
鸡和奔跑的青豆
我所看到的地方
我有时恨你
...........
床边的一盆花
我一时失手
打破了你的头
孩子死于清晨
我给他起了个名字
他的名字叫托马斯
可怜的小家伙
他的心像魔法般鼓动得跳动

这是一段瘾君子的感情。
经历过爱，美好，吸毒，戒毒，孩子，失去孩子，新的生活，精神病..
.最后再次聚首，却回不到过去。
世界并没有改变，在你眼里世界是什么样的他就是什么样的。
你用你的行为把它变成了那个似乎绝境的深渊。
这样爱情也会在泥藻中失去她的姿色。
最后连同所有的一切被黑暗吞噬。
精神病是人逃避的港湾。死亡是逃避港湾的人最后的终点。